Random post (:

Saw this just now on the website.

She is perfect.

Stay strong, and results will show. <3

What a Great Day

Woke up and watched Coraline because I absolutely love that movie.

Drank coffee like usual and my stepmom asked if I wanted to go do errands with her.

I declined the offer because I was going to go to Wal-Mart with a friend...

WELL

I took a shower and even did my hair for once!

 I put on nice clothes and I even matched!! [:

Get in my car and start it up......only so it could die right in front of my house!!!!!

Luckily, I got the front end into my driveway...

but I spent 5 minutes pushing it as far as it would go.

I LIVE ON A BUSY STREET AND IT TOOK 10 MINUTES BEFORE ANYONE STOPPED

And it was two guys so that is a plus! But that's not the only thing.

I locked my keys and phone inside my car and my dad, who is at work, has the spare.

I was locked outside my house and it took me forever

 to get the screen off of my window and

THANK GOD or Gandhi or whoever

 that my window was open.

I was so mad I wanted to cry, but I didn't [:

This is my only car and I leave Friday morning for college.

This would happen to me.

It's what I get for eating pizza and nachos last night.

What an adventure

Hung out with my old best friend which is always nice. She is so thin and pretty it almost makes me sick. I got pretty drunk and when I was going to sleep I felt like I could vanish off this planet and no one would notice.

But that is totally stupid to think because I know I have people who care for me, and love me just how I am...These thoughts of self-hate ring endlessly in my ears, and feel as if it will never stop.

I just wish someone could make me live my life..just loving myself for once.

GW:2

Finally made it to 133 this morning.

Going to the store later and taking my friend to her doctor.

Leaving for school this Friday :/ not really sure how i feel about it. I haven't been able to eat for the past week, so I think it's safe to say that I am excited.

All is great fine and dandy y'all.

Except that I realized no matter how much weight I lose, I will never see myself as anything other than

a waste of space.

GW:1

I MADE IT!!!!!!!

<3

(:

YOU CAN MAKE ANY GOAL YOU SET FOR YOURSELF.

Please, don't let anything stop you.

Love & Pain

THIS is exactly what it's like to look in the mirror. I can't help but STARE at this picture...it's so sad, yet honest.

went running today 2.46 miles! wo0ot! cal intake I'm not actually sure but if I had to guess I'd say somewhere around 700 maybe 750
I turned down a pizza offer and went running so I feel like i achieved a major accomplishment.
I think I'm finally back on track, and I am in control of myself!
think positive and take each day as it is. you won't lose all you want over night!!!

stay strong and healthy <3



WOWZA!!!

I am really bored. I played The Sims 2 for about 3 hours...yep just sitting on my ass like normal!

BUTTTT I am now back in the 130's and for a treat, I am going to get my hair permed tomorrow =]

BOOOO-YAHHH!!!

Precious by Minipop is a great song if you are looking for something smooth and relaxing.

so is Corner of your Heart by Ingrid Michaelson ;)

So what is the secret to my weight loss?

Not binging (:

yeah yeah yeah. I know it is easier said than done, but IT CAN BE DONE. write all the foods you want a paper and throw it away! take a shower. shave your legs. clean your room.

DO SOMETHING.

do push-ups...do some sit-ups! FYI: doing sit-ups in your bed is AWESOME if you have back problems and/or want a different and fun workout!

OKAY so school is almost over with, and I could not be any more estatic! I am not really lonely andymore becaus the weather has been nicer and nice weather always makes me happier!

YEP! so now for some of the good ol' things in life

Totally have NOT been on Blogger in theeeee longest time!

UPDATE

Okay so i can tell by my comments and messages that Blogger did not miss me. I am currently on Day 2 of the ABC and

i am pretty hungry strong. if the entire ABC is like this, i do not see a chance of failing!

ahah

false hope & wishful thinking are what i do best!

okay so Harry Potter 6 Part 1 comes out tomorrow and I am buying it right after school =] Harry Potter is one of those movies i will never get tired of. i love how they pass the time so fast for me.

OH i also like to play the sims when i am hungry or bored or BOTH! :3

it REALLY passes the time.

tomorrow i get to have 300 calories :) yay! i feel strong today, but i wonder if it will change when i am around my boyfriend and no longer just sitting at home in my room...by myself!!

hah i like it this way though...most of the time.

i like writing to Blogger. i feel like it's a place no one really goes and i am free to say whatever i feel. :D