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In fear of Xanga shutting down, or making me pay for their services, I am back to being a bloghead on Blogger.

If you know me from xanga, LET ME KNOW!!

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It has been over a year since my last post, but I am back now, and will continue where I started off.. 

I'm not sure I ever wrote too much on this site, but I am a woman of many thoughts and words. I love feedback!!! I give feedback as well! I am not afraid to talk, quite frankly, I can talk too much.

I am currently going to school for massage therapy and will be done mid December. I am going to be 21 in a month, and I have an amazing boyfriend who puts up with my shit and random mood swings.

Sometimes I feel like I may be bipolar and other times I think that thought was silly.

I do best when I am alone, but being alone all the time can get pretty, well, lonely.

That's where I am right now...where are you?

send me a message or comment anytime.

[I did mention how much I enjoy FEEDBACK!]

<3 Stephhh

New Year, New You!

Happy New Year!!!

My night was pretty good until I wanted to go to bed, and my friend stole it! I had her on the floor, but she puked ahah..and then stole my bed! I have to laugh about that because...well she is my best friend and she never drinks!






I am going to make this year the best year yet! That's what I plan anyways.

I ate cheetos last night in my room after everyone went to bed, and I'm 98% sure that I also ate a sausage.

-__- and I was doing so good, BUT I will NOT beat myself up over some chips and some meat.

I will be a little nicer to myself because afterall, this is MY life and I create my OWN happiness.

I will get skinny; even if it kills me.





















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UPDATE

Okay so i can tell by my comments and messages that Blogger did not miss me. I am currently on Day 2 of the ABC and

i am pretty hungry strong. if the entire ABC is like this, i do not see a chance of failing!

ahah

false hope & wishful thinking are what i do best!

okay so Harry Potter 6 Part 1 comes out tomorrow and I am buying it right after school =] Harry Potter is one of those movies i will never get tired of. i love how they pass the time so fast for me.

OH i also like to play the sims when i am hungry or bored or BOTH! :3

it REALLY passes the time.

tomorrow i get to have 300 calories :) yay! i feel strong today, but i wonder if it will change when i am around my boyfriend and no longer just sitting at home in my room...by myself!!

hah i like it this way though...most of the time.

i like writing to Blogger. i feel like it's a place no one really goes and i am free to say whatever i feel. :D

What am I doing here?

I don't really know why I'm here...but I have no where else to go. I have tried talking to people ad finding people online who understand me, but no one seems to give the effort back to me. I feel like no one knows me anymore. Life is a lonely place to be when no one understands you...when you don't even understand yourself.

I have an eating disorder but i appear to be a healthy girl. Healthy = FAT COW obviously.
I'm EDNOS but am more ana..i use to self-harm, but have luckily gotten over THAT and i hope none of you do it (talk to me if you need to)
i doubt that anyone will look at my blog just like i have not look at every ones either!

sometimes i just need to clear my head and i think that is why i created this blog. the screams of my heart race through my fingers as i type. i hope someone tries to talk to me =[ i have no where else to reach out to.

ABOUT ME:
my name is not important but you can call me Lia. I am 18 soon to be 19. i got an eating disorder when i was 14. i use to love food, but now i can't eat without feeling bad. i can't look in mirrors without wishing i was dead. i cant help but to examine a pretty girl. i have terrible self-confidence with my looks. i feel like no one looks at me because i am just another average face. i want to be that gorgeous girl every girl wants to be and every guy wants to have.
one thing: i will NEVER lose my personality. it is the one thing that i have been granted with.
please if you read this: contact me. i need someone.