New Years Eve

And I am going to get drunk!

But I'm sure my friend will get more drunk than me because she is tiny, and she never drinks!

Last time we drank together,

she threw up pepperoni in my brother's sink!

It was....disgusting.

And I had to clean it up.

That's what I get though!

Tacos for dinner tonight, and my stomach already hurts! Damn doctor..I have to wait a week before I find out if I have an ulcer..or cancer :o

Well. Here is some fun thinspo!

Before and After

I actually had people comment on some posts! thanks Amanda and Missing_Angel. It is good to know that someone, besides myself, actually looks at my blog.

Feeling good today. Have had coffee and some flavored water.

Mom keeps asking what I want for dinner, but she already knows I won't eat it.

I mean she doesnt know exactly, but I have tummy troubles and I didn't eat last night because of it.

even though it was lasagna and garlic bread!!!

hmm i love that stuff.

you know you do too!

but be strong, because:

a moment on the lips; forever on the hips!

Eve of Christmas

Merry Christmas everyone.

I dont even know

I'm so lost in my own mind right now, i don't even know what's going on.

Random post (:

Saw this just now on the website.

She is perfect.

Stay strong, and results will show. <3

Shadow in my Life

I feel like I am invisible.

Even though I know I am not.

I'm just another person on this planet living a life.

Yet, I am always so hard on myself.

It kills me to know that I am hurting myself.

It hurts most to know that I can't love myself.

I look in the mirror and see a pig.

I touch my stomach and I want to hurl.

I wear a mask everyday, and now it is stuck on me.

I am a happy person. I really am.

But this shadow lingers like a nasty cold.

and I'm stuck.

Finals Week

Stress. Stress. And more...STRESS!
my face broke out and I have lost maybe about 8 pounds.
I haven't been eating much at all.
under 500 calories all week
yet I still look huge.
I know I can't lose everything in a night, but I think my metabolism has slowed a bit...

):
sad day!

Well. that's all